I'm there, but at the same time, I'm not.

I have a dense boyfriend. He doesn't know anything. He doesn't know what to do in a relationship much less know how a girl thinks. He's so impossible. He doesn't get a clue that maybe I'm upset or sad or I want to talk to him. Because he doesn't realize anything. He says things that push me away and doesn't realize that that hurts. It's saddening. I don't see why he would say that. Why would he say that...? He's not romantic and doesn't know where to go for dates. He doesn't realize that I enjoy just being with him so I don't mind if we do something boring. He doesn't realize that I don't need something fancy in order to be happy or to at least cherish. Sometimes, I think that he would rather be away from me. With his friends playing games or talking instead of talking to me because it seems that I'm just that insignificant. Sometimes, I feel like I don't even exist in his eyes. I'm there, but at the same time, I'm not. In the end, I still love him unconditionally, but at times, he's just so dense. Nothing gets through and he doesn't realize anything either.  It's hard having to live like this, when you're not remembered as much as you'd like to be. Easily forgotten. Just like any other person. Tiring.