Fuck.

I hate everyone. Why do I even live.
Again and again. This happens. Every. FUcking. TIme. I'm tired of this. The fact that you don't  even care. That you don't make a fucking effort to do anything. That the same fucking things happen every time. You always blame me. "Why don't I fucking blame Kristen for every thing that happens. OF FUCKING COURSE it's not MY fucking fault." No. That's it. I'm done. This time, YOU'RE going to make up for it. I'm not going to do shit. I'm not going to show that I care, that I want to talk to you.

Why do I hate everyone.

I hate everyone. Just die. Just die. I'm so tired. Mother FUCKER. I'm tired.
Why do I want to cry all the time. It's fucking pointless.
Fuck Mark. Fuck everyone. Fuck me. UGH.

Goddamn.

I'm so tired. UGH. I'm going to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Happy Mother's Day

We're going to go eat at todai's later. It's a super cool buffet that I've never been to before but I heard some awesome stuff about it. Haha
So yesterday, I went to the CIF Volleyball game. It was so fun ! Intense, but we lost to them ;O Oh wells, they played alright I guess.
On Friday, I went to Kathy's concert entitled "End of Days". I LOVED it. So beautiful and emotional. Heh. I saw a bunch of people that I haven't talked to in a while and we hung out for a bit. Eh ;O
After the concert, when Kathy came out after being dismissed, she came to me and we chatted for a bit. Err. This is really weird, but when Kathy asked for a kiss, I gave her one right on the lips. I don't know if she meant the cheek or not, but she didn't seem to mind. I don't know..I feel .. weird. That was my first kiss with a girl.. I don't know if I should tell Mark or not. I feel like I should, but I don't want him to feel offended or anything. D:
Ah crap, I'll tell him later today. </3
Mark's still sick.. I think he sounded so much like crap that I couldn't even understand what he was saying. Sadly.
Oh wells. Time to study my ass off because I didn't do anything yesterday !

To the point where I don't want to care anymore.

School's almost to an end. I'm just so fed up with work. More work next year.
I will persevere. I can deal with all this. I can do this. I will get the straight As that I feel that I deserve. As of late, I've been putting off all kinds of work. It's time to get serious and get it done right.
I'm almost there.

You know what you should do?

I hate when I'm mad at you. You never realize it. You don't even know why. You just continue to piss me off more and more. You're dense. You're blind. You don't even TRY to figure things out BY YOURSELF. You don't know anything. You don't know the first thing about anything. You tell me that I should be more open? I should TELL you why? Shit, it's so fucking OBVIOUS and you don't even realize it. You know what you should do? Grow the hell up. Think for yourself. Stop depending on other people for answers. You would get a trophy for dependency and pity. Another thing. Whenever something happens, you always HAVE the shift it so YOU'RE the fucking "victim". No. Fuck you. It's your fault.
I don't get it. I really don't. It's times like these when I wish I could just die already. I could just be free from everything that's fucking FINE with me. People get sad? Fuck them, they'll get over it. Sometimes I wish I never got in a relationship. Fucking trouble in all directions.
Everything fucking pisses me off. School. Tennis. People. Myself. Everything and everyone can fucking die.
Stop pissing me the fuck off. I don't like it anymore than you do.

Oh wells.

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATEVER. FUCK IT. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. OHHHHHH FUCKING WELLS.
Fuck it. t(-__-t)
I'm tired of bullshit.
UGH. -flips shit-

Fahrenheit 451

Well, I'm seventeen and I'm crazy. My uncle says the two always go together. When people ask your age, he said, always say seventeen and insane.

He wore his happiness like a mask and the girl had run off across the lawn with the mask and there was no way of going to knock on the door and ask for it back.