Since I already told someone..

 Kryteeeenn 8:57 pm
    the varsity girls were going to throw a going away party for annie since she's going to wisconsin.
    so i woke up at 8 today, got ready, and went to nancy liang's house to make the presents that we were going to give her
    so we made a pillow, a blanket, and fixed up a basket for her. i paid for the basket stuff, so it was 15 dollars. wtf, so much. D: LOL.
    so everything was made in a rush but it was still done pretty well, so we nancy and i were prety proud of ourselves. so we dropped by walmart, got some mcdonalds to eat and i got my fried chicken because it was kind of like a potluck

 Kryteeeenn 9:00 pm
    so after we got all our stuff, she drove us over to mora ung's house and we decorated her house and all
    streamers and like her house is already pretty so we didn't do much. so we waited.
    nana, christine ton, nancy huynh, nancy h's friend, henry,  leanna, tracy nguyen, and michelle hau were there too
    so we're all waiting and waiting and waiting
    we knew that not all the girls were going to be there but we hoped annie was going to go
    but she fucking didn't
    so when i called
    i was like

 Kryteeeenn 9:03 pm
    Where the hell are you?
    "I'm at my friends house ! Why ? Practice doesn't start till 5 ! "
    THERE'S NO PRACTICE TODAY. didn't susanna tell you ? We have a party at mora's house !
    (the story was that we were throwing a welcome party for a freshman that made girl's varsity)
    "What? Susanna didn't tell me. And I don't have a ride or anything. "
    NO I'M PRETTY SURE SHE TOLD YOU. OMG, WTF. OK brb. ugh.
    

 Kryteeeenn 9:06 pm
    and i think i accidently hung up but oh well. so all she knew was that there was apartyy and it's at someone's house, but no one told her anything, even though susanna DID.
    So she texted back "OMG I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS TODAY" kind of thing and it'sl ike well wtf.. she texts again saying "OHHH I REMEMBER NOW, SUSANNA DID TELL MEE. OHHHH"
    well wtf. =__= ''
    so we decided to just eat the food aand have the party without her. and to give her the presents on monday.
    so much goddamn food. LOL.
    i ate sooo much, and i was soo full, i couldn't eat that much dessert LOL ughghgh. afterwards, we played pool and then watched movies in mora's room
    then i left to go home with nancy

 Kryteeeenn 9:08 pm
    but the annie thing REALLY bothered me. ugh.
    so i told mark the story of what happened. and he replied "I guess that's what you get when you throw a surprise party. "
    THAT'S SO NFUIWALRSDF PISSED ME OFF.
    So i texted him back telling him that that was realy bitchy. and i got mad
    N;Kesfioaw. bothered me so much.
    ok. i'm done.
    whew.
    ~

I hate everything and everyone.

I hate texting in the middle of the night on your whim. I hate never talking to you. I hate never getting to see you. I hate how you're so impossible. I hate how you don't even seem to care anymore. I hate how you're never there for me. I just really really hate it.
I hate how I'm not smart. I hate how I suck at everything I do. I hate how I'm so ugly. I hate how nothing good ever happens to me. I hate how I'm so weak. I hate everything about me. I hate how I'm so useless. I hate how I'm never going to go anywhere in life. I hate how I'm so pessimistic. I hate how no one cares. I hate how I started to depend on people. I hate me.
Why can't I just die already. Everything is just so pointless. I'm tired of everything. Life is stupid, short, pointless, and boring. I hate everything and everyone. Just go the fuck away. I'm tired of talking, or trying, getting mad, and pissed. I'm tired of doing things on my accord and then being put down and rejected like I'm nothing. Well, it probably is because I AM nothing.

Reverse Chronological Order.

6/16/12 At home, now.
Goddamit, why do you complain about everything. I play a GAME for the FIRST FUCKING TIME SINCE WHO THE FUCK KNOWS HOW LONG, and you bitch at me for playing games? Wow. WOW. Fuck you.  I get good grades (relatively good). I do my work. I do extracurricular activities. I do more than what's expected of me. And you get mad at me for PLAYING GAMES? I DON'T EVEN CARE IF YOU GET MAD AT ME FOR NOT DOING THE FUCKING LAUNDRY, BUT PLAYING GAMES? JESUS CHRIST, YOU MUST BE BLIND. TELL ME, WHEN WAS THE LAST FUCKING TIME I PLAYED A GAME. IF YOU KNOW, GOOD, BECAUSE I CERTAINLY DON'T. Doing chores, I get that. I do them, sometimes I don't. I would feel bad if I didn't do it, so I do it sooner or later (more sooner than later). Fucking shit, but getting mad because I play fucking games? UGH. I JUST WANT TO FLIP SHIT. FNRUPAAKGWNE

Earlier, Trumpet Social @ Pedro's house
It was kind of fun; A lot of people went (sort of). We messed around and ate a lot, but I liked it. I had to leave early because my mom wanted me to go home, so I missed out on watching movies with the section. Eh, oh wells.

6/13/12 At school; Last day of school; Graduation.
Today was the last day of school. The last time that I would see the seniors at San Gabriel. It was nice; I cried, but it's okay. They'll visit, hopefully. When we were going to leave, Mark introduced himself (kind of) to my family. It was more of a "hi" and then leave kind of thing, but it satisfied my grandma, aunt, and mom, so it's fine with me. Later, when we went out to eat  for Kelly's celebration, my mom told me to see when Mark can come over to have lunch with us. I'm fine with it, but when I told Mark, he made everything so weird and awkward. Haha, I told my mom that it wouldn't work out so well. Oh wells.

6/12/12 Century High School, Graduation Ceremony
Since Century High School was having their graduation ceremony at our school's football field, Century High paid us, the band, to play for them. We did (not all of us came seeing how it was optional), though we were rather rude. I doubt anyone paid attention or cared, but it's okay.

6/11/12 Last day of Finals
Upon the end of this day, finals have ended. I got As on all my finals except WHAP (since I didn't have a final) and part 2 of my Spanish final (I got a high B). Overall, I got five As and one B which totals into a 4.17 gpa. I'm rather proud of myself, though I'm nearly absolutely sure that I COULD have gotten an A in world. OH WELLS. I'M OVER IT.

6/8/12 Spaghetti Factory; Bandquet
It was preeeeeettyy damn fun.
Our drum majors are Aydin Hau, Jackie Flores, and Ryan Duong. I'm pretty satisfied with the results and I'm happy that the selected people won. The new band president is Katie Mai and other awards were given out. Presentations of the seniors gifts arrived and when the trumpet section presented, I would say that we drew the most laughter. Natalie and I made pillows for the seniors. On one side was their respective names, and the other was a picture of a triangle for Aaron, a piano for Calvin, and a portable body of Runa for Teddy and of Debbie for Hien. The seniors gave us food and some shades, haha.

Altogether, it seems like June has been pretty eventful. It's the beginning of summer vacation and school starts on August 21st. I've got summer tennis practice and have sent a volunteer application to San Gabriel City Hall. Hopefully, they'll contact me soon. I also have AP US history homework that I need to start. I'll finish and study it eventually.

I need to stay occupied.

Grades: Pissed off to no end.

Apparently, my group and I got caught for plagiarism. Which is so completely stupid. I wasn't in fucking charge of writing the captions and shit, but who would be so stupid as to not paraphrase. It's so fucking goddamn simple. Why the fuck would that even happen. The group isn't really one of those groups where some people do nothing and one person does everything else. Everyone contributed and we're all capable of doing extremely well. I don't see why. I really don't. Now, my 88 will probably drop to a 85 (Yes, I calculated it. That's how upset I was) even with the other little assignments that the teacher gave us.
I got over it, but then at the same time, my grade in Spanish is starting to slip and start to go down. My oh-so-close-to-an-A-but-is-still-an-89, went down to an 88. I really have to pass the finals with As on all the different finals. I don't want to get a B in SPANISH. That's ridiculous. Ridiculous. Spanish has always been easy for me. I never really had to try, but now the information's getting to be a bit too much. I'm going to HAVE to study for it now. I don't care what other people think. I do my own thing.
Shout out to Kenny. I don't give a fucking damn about whether you studied or not . I don't give a fucking damn if you passed with a solid A and you didn't even try to do well. Mother fucker. I don't care anymore. I'm doing my own thing and you can fuck off.
While my Spanish grade is dropping ever so slowly, my Chemistry grade is gradually increasing.
As for English, I need to just get a decent grade in the class and I'll be fine for this semester.

On a different note, I hate right now. This feeling of misery and low self-esteem. Feeling needy and helpless has never been a recurring trait for me. I've always hated getting help, but now I've been loosening up because of Mark. I'm trusting him a lot more and being way more open. However, it also has some bad effects. What if he's not here when I need him or something? Like right now. Time to take a personality switch and go back to the old Kristen.
The old Kristen. I miss her. Strong sense of individuality, independent, fun, cheerful, smart, happy. I feel like most of these qualities don't even apply to me anymore. I feel like I'm a different person without even changing; I still feel like me, but it's like everything I DO or REACT changed. Nothing's the same anymore. Over and over again, things change.
Sometimes, change is nice.

Ok. I'm done. I'm just going to go study up for English and Spanish.

Oh ! Band banquet is tomorrow night. I'm excited for that! I just hope that it'll be fun and not fucked up like these past few days.