Apparently, my group and I got caught for plagiarism. Which is so completely stupid. I wasn't in fucking charge of writing the captions and shit, but who would be so stupid as to not paraphrase. It's so fucking goddamn simple. Why the fuck would that even happen. The group isn't really one of those groups where some people do nothing and one person does everything else. Everyone contributed and we're all capable of doing extremely well. I don't see why. I really don't. Now, my 88 will probably drop to a 85 (Yes, I calculated it. That's how upset I was) even with the other little assignments that the teacher gave us.
I got over it, but then at the same time, my grade in Spanish is starting to slip and start to go down. My oh-so-close-to-an-A-but-is-still-an-89, went down to an 88. I really have to pass the finals with As on all the different finals. I don't want to get a B in SPANISH. That's ridiculous. Ridiculous. Spanish has always been easy for me. I never really had to try, but now the information's getting to be a bit too much. I'm going to HAVE to study for it now. I don't care what other people think. I do my own thing.
Shout out to Kenny. I don't give a fucking damn about whether you studied or not . I don't give a fucking damn if you passed with a solid A and you didn't even try to do well. Mother fucker. I don't care anymore. I'm doing my own thing and you can fuck off.
While my Spanish grade is dropping ever so slowly, my Chemistry grade is gradually increasing.
As for English, I need to just get a decent grade in the class and I'll be fine for this semester.
On a different note, I hate right now. This feeling of misery and low self-esteem. Feeling needy and helpless has never been a recurring trait for me. I've always hated getting help, but now I've been loosening up because of Mark. I'm trusting him a lot more and being way more open. However, it also has some bad effects. What if he's not here when I need him or something? Like right now. Time to take a personality switch and go back to the old Kristen.
The old Kristen. I miss her. Strong sense of individuality, independent, fun, cheerful, smart, happy. I feel like most of these qualities don't even apply to me anymore. I feel like I'm a different person without even changing; I still feel like me, but it's like everything I DO or REACT changed. Nothing's the same anymore. Over and over again, things change.
Sometimes, change is nice.
Ok. I'm done. I'm just going to go study up for English and Spanish.
Oh ! Band banquet is tomorrow night. I'm excited for that! I just hope that it'll be fun and not fucked up like these past few days.
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