Fuck bitches up.

I hate school so much. I hate everyone so much. I hate everything so much. I hate eating. I hate living. I hate having to meet expectations. I hate people. There's too many people on earth. I'm so tired of people. Tired of living. Fuck bitches up. Shit. There's so much to do, but no motivation to do it.

There is no point in living.

Fuck all the people that think I'm worth something. I'm not. I'm worthless and a waste of human life and resources. People like me deserve to die as soon as possible. There is no point in living. SO many people strive to be the best, but they still end up the same as other people that don't try at all. We all end up dead. So why fight fate? Why don't we all just die collectively. That way, everyone's gone and no one would feel sad for one another. Honestly, I don't know if there's a heaven or if people get reincarnated, but does it matter? It's just a cycle of dying over and over again. It's the circle of death, not the circle of life. People that say that God does not condone suicide, God also leads you to your way of life. If he leads you to committing suicide, wouldn't he be contradicting his actions?
Overall, I'm tired. I want to die. Everyday that I wake up, my first thought is, " Why." Why am I still alive.

So I'm tired.

What's your fucking problem? You KNOW that I'm tired and just fatigued to the point where I don't want to talk to anyone or do anything. Why must you insist that I'm MAD. As if I had the time and effort to be mad. That's just so stupid. I'm tired. I have tennis to worry about. I have to do homework and study for classes that I'm going to fail which are supposed to prep me for the AP test which I am also going to fail. I have to deal with stupid band members that don't give a single fuck and have to see the everyday. I have to trudge through my REGULAR lang class. You really don't know how it feels to be in regulars. You. Really. Don't. You would never understand. I'm tired. Am I not allowed to be tired now? Do I HAVE to be energetic and enthusiastic and happy? People aren't like that. Everyone gets pissed off, or depressed, or just plain tired. You INSIST that you did something wrong and that I won't tell you what you did wrong whenever I'm listless and tired. You insist that I'm pissed off when I just really don't want to do anything. I don't want to deal with anything. Then I have to deal with YOU when you say that. Finally, you end by saying that I don't care. When have I NOT cared. If anything, I think YOU'RE the one that doesn't care. Where were you when I was ACTUALLY mad and pissed off? Now you're here when I'm NOT mad, rather just plain frustrated and tired from everything. I've told you so many goddamn times; I'm almost getting tired of saying it.