never mind and goodbye.

I feel like I'm missing out. This distance between us and the need to strive forward in our own lives makes it so much harder. I don't get to talk to you much anymore. Other people get to see you and talk to you and hang out with you. And it's not fair. I wish I could hold you and hug you. Even hear your voice without the knowing fuzz from a cell phone. I don't know. It's what's expected I guess. I'm just jealous and probably paranoid so never mind and goodbye.