I hate being forgotten.

You know. i'm not asking for you to spend all your damn fucking time with me. I just want to be able to talk to you sometimes. You're in class and I respect that. But the damn moment you get home you're just sleeping. by the time you wake up, i'm done for the day. When do i ever get to have a moment with you? Other than the nights when i'm in bed and you're doing something else. I can barely have a conversation with you anymore because I don't know what to say to you and apparently I'd have to schedule an appointment just to talk to you. Am I going crazy or do all my relationships end in the other person ignoring me? Because I really don't know anymore. I thought that I could talk to you without boundaries. You told me that I could talk to you anytime. Well you weren't there. You rarely are anymore and you fail to see that. Of course I understand that you're over there and you want to move on and hang out with your friends because why the fuck not right? It just bothers me that there's not a moment you stop to think about me when I think about you all the time. You always said that I'm not as open anymore. How's this for being open. I hate being forgotten. I hate creating bonds with other people that I would learn to love and laugh with when I know that eventually they'll all leave me. I hate being alone and being thousands of miles away in a city where I haven't known anyone for more than a month, 'alone' is basically what I always feel. Hey doesn't this sound fucking familiar? Something you told me all the time. How you needed me and I would swoop down and come to your rescue. Where are you? Where are you when I need you? When I just need someone to listen to me and bear with my sadness because it's hard being alone. All I'm asking for is to just be any part of your life right now. Because somehow we had the past figured out and the future planned, but completely missed the present.