Honestly, I don't deserve anything. I'm selfish and I always want more. I move forward at the expense of others and I shouldn't do that anymore. I shouldn't do anything anymore. I try to be happy with what I have but I break it.
Happiness is a vicious emotion. It tricks you into thinking that things are better and it'll stay like that. In actuality, happiness is a veil that varies for everyone. It could blind one and leave them thinking that life is great and perfect. Happiness could be a torn up sheet that shields your eyes, but only sometimes. The moment you shift your position or even make a slight adjustment, it falls and horror strikes you from all around. The real world is shown and you want to reach over and grab your happiness back but it's too late. It's fallen and slipped from your grasp. You can never get it back.
Remember that day? I'm sorry about that. There was so much running through my mind. Everything and all my problems were bombarding against my mind and I didn't know what to do. I just wanted to get away. Everything was tearing my mind apart and I just wanted to leave and be done with everything. I'm sorry that you got dragged into my life because you really don't need to take part in anything that I do. I'm sorry that I have a miserable life and that you're with me. I'm sorry that my actions are so stupid and I'm so impossible.
Most of all I'm sorry for being here. What would happen if I wasn't? Everyone would be happy. Things would carry on. The world forgets. You would forget.
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