What am I supposed to do? Do I give up my dreams and hopes and aspirations for your benefit? Is my purpose in life to make you happy? No, right? I have choices and opinions, right? Why can't you support me? Why am I always to blame? Honestly have I ever done anything right in your eyes? Because it seems that i'm always making the wrong choices and disappointing everyone left and right. You don't care. None of you care. Much less support me.
Every single one of you try and try and try to persuade me to cut my dreams short. Telling me the consequences my choices bring and that I should be careful.
Do not tell me how much this university costs. Do not tell me how many years it's going to take. Do not tell me that it might not work out in the end. Do not tell me how many miles away I would be. Do not tell me that I can't adjust. Do not tell me how difficult life would be. Do not tell me how lonely I would be. Do not tell me how hard life would be for you. Do not tell me that I don't know what I'm doing. But most of all, do not tell me that I'm not thinking about all this already. I've thought about this before. I still think about it and I can't believe that I'm starting to be persuaded by you.
Why.. Why do you tell me that you trust me but forget those very words when it counts? Why do you give me the false hope of telling me that you'll support me? That it's ok to make whatever decisions I want as long as I follow through with it? That no matter what I do, it's my decision and my life? Why do you lie to me?
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